Hi.
First, I don't believe aliens are here, never did and it's highly unlikely that I ever will. My view is that there is high probability that there is life somewhere else in universe, other than on Earth - or that there was or will be, math alone confirms it. I guess I share that view with most of scientists. But, I still have a story to tell that contradicts my reality view, so I'll keep intro short and wait for some input. Here it goes..
I study physics and was always interested in secrets of the universe. As I advance in school, I'm sad to admit that there are some things that I just can't wrap my head around; most recent, string theory. From very early age I do a lot of research in many different areas, even about aliens, ufo's, metaphysical, religious, ancient civs - you name it...just trying to figure out this mess called life. I stopped believing in white bearded entity called god about the same time I stopped believing in santa - my mind is logical and have a hard time accepting fairy tails, even though I have a very active imagination, so everything else is just put away as theories. Just as the string one.
One friday, around 4 months ago, I took mdma on random party (short story about me&drugs: I tried some most common stuff (no hard drugs), mostly once or twice; off course, after I did my research on it. I don't drink, I do occasionally smoke weed). And it was a blast - my mind was mostly clear, but...well, the best way to explain it is that it was as if my soul had a orgasm. A few hours long orgasm. Back on topic...two days later I met a girl, friend of a acquaintance who doesn't know my life story. And the only thing he said about her is that she is some kind of medium, that she 'has a connection with other side'. A girl, younger than me? Excellent, testing time! I thought to myself, I've always wanted to meet&talk to one and I felt prepared with long before prepared traps&tricks for a situation like this. Our eyes met across the room and she sighed heavily as she came to us, sat next to me and we started talking. I'll never forget that conversation...
Guys that were at the table with us said later that it was the weirdest thing they ever saw. All they heard were questions, a lot of them incomprehensible on both sides, or stopped half way through, long periods of silence with random bursts of laughs or sighs and tears while we starred in each others eyes closely. My side of story? We didn't even have to talk out loud, I heard her, she heard me. Answers to those questions? We painted them in each others eyes is the closest explanation that I can give. Unmistakably correct answers in form of vivid pictures or mini-movies. And she caught my traps&tricks, a lot of them as early as I was forming them in my head. I won't go in too much detail here, but she knew about everyone that I lost, by name, time, their influence on me, about my biggest regret that she said is keeping me stuck in past...she offered to help me to reach certain someone, to say proper goodbye.
As if that wasn't enough and the reason why I chose this forum to share this story; somewhere in our conversation I asked if I can see her, the real her. And after a minute or two of continuous starring, far edges of my eyes started to shiver as if I had a seizure...then, 'the picture' of our world started folding away in hexagons around here eyes like honey bee hive from outside in and was replaced by black empty space. My eyes felt like they will pop out, I felt cold on my eyeballs, it felt like I was in space, felt no gravity and heard buzzing sound. Few different frequencies, one sound. Then, those hexagons reached center of her eyes and I saw her pupils. They were not human, tall and narrow, most similar to this picture (upper part): http://ift.tt/2k2p3AI Then I started to zoom out and her eyes were big, they looked like on this picture, I came to the edges of her eyes and saw shells...again, just like on this fucking picture. Here, she stopped me. I felt as if she was ashamed to show me more. In an instant, matrix was back on. I felt no fear, but my breathing was panic-like, short&shallow, my heartbeat strong&fast...after that, our 'conversation' continued as if that didn't happen. Later I tried to 'see' her again, but she blocked me. Don't make me explain how I tried, I don't know. I just concentrated on it, like the first time. But I felt she doesn't want it, so I stopped trying, didn't even come close. I moved shortly after (because of a job, not that event), so I didn't see her after that, I don't even remember her name. I will soon move back (at least for a while), but my heart starts pounding hard every time I think about if I should meet her again.
Soouu...what was that? I can't explain any of it. Was it real at all? It wasn't a dream, guys that were with us confirm that there was something weird going on. Mdma kicking ~30 hours later, after 2x6 hour sleep? I'm healthy, until recently I was semi-pro footballer, having physicals all the time, I run every day, am amateur climber, sporty type. I eat healthy, read a lot...drugs are occasional experimantations, I do take more than enough time between them (2-3 times per year, it doesn't matter which type), except weed which I mostly get in 5g packs every few months, in average. And I know we smoke crap here, none of hallucinogen of whatever kind of weed, just plain bad weed. So, I believe it's not drugs, unless it really kicked again after ~30h? It was 0.1g and even that I divided in half and took other half ~3h after first one. I felt normal the next day, after a joint I felt aftereffect which normalized shortly after. And two days later, when all that happened? I'm 99% certain it wasn't the drug. Can I rul it out? I never talked with anyone about this, I'm not even sure I'll post it. Not because of fear, I just don't want any trouble for anyone. If anyone have any thoughts about it, similar experience, have heard similar story, links, other forums, anything...please, share with me. If you don't want to do it here, my e-mail is: sugarseriously@gmx.com
Looking forward for replies.
Submitted February 08, 2017 at 06:58AM by SugarSeriously http://ift.tt/2ljMDOb
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