I don't know what's happening

Ever since I was able to remember when I first looked up at the sky. I knew something was off. My parents didn't allow us to watch a lot of TV when we were younger. We only played outside or inside with our toys. Now that I am 19 years old, my mother decided to tell me some stories when I was little. At the age of 4, I apparently had told her that I wanted to go in space. Everyone would think this as something silly and not to worry about it. But my mother did when she asked a simple 'why'. My 4 year old self had told her that the stars are calling for me, telling me to come home. Around 2007, when I was 8 years old, my space obsession became worser. I looked up every planets and stars in the library. My father had told my mother it was a thing kids did and told her not to worry about it. She did believe him, but I asked her once if she saw the Tall Man in the hallway a few days ago. My father, who doesn't like to see me afraid/sad/worried, yelled at me to never talk about that again. Since that day, I am not able to remember a lot of things. This is where the scary parts come. I have never seen the face of an alien when I was little on a computer or TV. I did know how they looked like. I am even able to remember that I stood in a white room, a big large window that made it easier for me to see the stars. It was beautiful, but I wasn't panicing at all. Not even when the Tall Man appeared to take my hand and lead me somewhere else. It was as if I had a strange connection with that thing. And now, I am not able to sleep peacefully as I did when I was little. I am terrified of the dark for an unknown reason and aliens are starting to scare me. I don't know what is going on and why I have been like this. And the funniest thing, what my parents always tell me. Is that they have picked the wrong baby from the hospital. I don't look like them at all. I am very pale and my eyes are big almond shaped. No one has this in my family. Of course, it isn't something to worry about. But, I want to know what kind of connections I have with that tall alien. I have to cut this short as I do not have much time. I do wish to tell more. I apologize for my English. It isn't my first language.

Submitted March 04, 2018 at 11:52AM by jinnxxeedd http://ift.tt/2H5TJwF