Aorry if it's the wrong sub. I felt like writing this for no particular reason. It's late and I'm super bored. I don't really care if you don't believe this; there's no reason for you to and I understand. I guess I just want this to be online somewhere if, even if poorly written, it can be useful or interesting for someone. Again, claim that I'm nuts or seeking attention or whatever and I'm not going to dispute you, the way that it happened is even set up to sound fake which I find pretty funny.
I've tried to dramatise it before when i used to write it back to myself too see how it sounds but it just comes off as lame, so here it goes:
I was 12 years old, or thereabouts and in the middle of the night I was suddenly awake. Outside there was some distant lightning, and I guess I just decided to look at it (outside my bedroom window). Not for any reason that I can recall, just that I was now for some reason awake and noticed that there was lightning. One lightning strike was nearer, and in that snapshot of light my eyes rapidly focused on a now illuminated pitch black oval hanging higher above, but well in my line of sight. (The sky lit up while the black oval maintained its darkness which was camouflaging it into the sky). I continued to stare at where I knew it now was, and of course I didn't see anything further as it was pitch black outside again.
And that's it haha. I wish I could say more but that's all there is to it.
The only other detail I hung on to which it found interesting is how, during that flash of lightning, the light seemed to form a sort of corona around the oval, which I saw really only on its underside, like, now that I think about it, it was a 3d object rather than like a 2d portal type of thing. But idk that's my momentary thought on it. The light shone quite brightly around its underside, but the top half and its sides were more or less pitch black (from what I remember as my memory might be flawed - which I doubt because obviously I made a good effort to remember this but still).
Okay theres actually one more detail I found interesting, to do with how I woke up. I just sort of gained full consciousness seemingly all at once like I was kicked out of my sleep cycle and just forced to be fully awake. Didn't wake up from a dream or because it was cold or hot or anything. Just awake. Now that I think about it maybe it was the lighting that woke me up though (didn't make any sound, just light).
Nothing else out of the ordinary has happened to me in my life to do with aliens or paranormal activity of any kind. I don't believe in conspiracies (at least I don't think I do) either. I don't suffer from hallucinations of any kind. Just mentioning that.
So I was probably dreaming then, you might say, but you know the difference between a memory of a dream and a real memory. There was nothing dreamlike of the blandness of the nights silence, how cold it was in my room, how dark and unmoving everything except for the slow roll of clouds and flashes of light was. The inside of my room littered with clothes as usual, silent like outside. How i could feel with all my senses the environment (feeling the bed, my breathing, temperature) which doesn't happen during dreams, where usually it's just sight and sound (at least for me). I made the case actually after it happened to try as hard as I could to remember it and not think I was just dreaming when I'd wake up the next morning. Anyway yeah that's my attempt at convincing you I wasnt dreaming because it pissed me off at 12 that my dad wouldn't believe me and told me that I was actually dreaming. I'd rather people think I'm a liar than too stupid to be able to tell the difference between a dream and reality, anyway im going way off topic.
Yeeeep, that's it lol. I always thought about writing this but was worried about if I was.. supposed to lol but yeah I figure im fine and yeah I figure it should be put there somewhere online because hey it might be interesting for someone, regardless if they think this is fake af or not.
I had my feelings at the time about it and I have them now, but I thought they're pretty irrelevant so maybe I'll just summarise them here before I close it off. Im not really surprised and I don't really care, it doesn't affect me in my day to day life as far as I'm aware. I have no idea what to make of it anyway, maybe one day the event might inspire something but now at 19 its like, eh I have more pressing things at the moment. Yep.
Submitted February 28, 2019 at 05:31AM by MustardNZ https://ift.tt/2Vrtbx3
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