During this step practice I was truly challenged. Even though I tried to prepare myself for stillness and focus before practicing, which I did after returning home from work, it was still challenging.
During the first practice I managed to keep my mind almost quiet, with thoughts about my experiences of the day, and my plans for the future interrupting. Even a song that I had recently listened to came in and out of my awareness. Despite these irritations I managed to return to stillness, although I did grow impatient, and after about 23 minutes I opened my eyes to check if I had accidentally left my phone on silent and missed the timer going off. Funnily enough, that actually turned out to be the case.
My second practice was a lot harder. My mind was constantly going off on its own and I had to bring myself back to a neutral state with effort. I practiced the deep, regular breathing, using the na-rahn chant, but it was a struggle. Afterward I felt very calm. Practicing to restrain my mind from being chaotic will take time, considering I have spent most of my life letting it do whatever it wanted, and feeding it highly stimulating input fairly frequently. But it is a start.
I don't think anybody is reading these posts, but I like posting them, even if it's just to keep me practicing, so I will continue.
Thank you for reading!
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Submitted April 25, 2019 at 03:56PM by Everythingisanexampl http://bit.ly/2UXrzPY
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