I’ve recently thrown myself into all this information and these theories. I can only spend so many hours in a day before exhausting myself physically and mentally. Wikipedia is great at telling me what information is out there without actually informing me at all about anything. Everyday I’m exponentially more confused and lost than before. And yea, I mean exponentially. I’m a college dropout, long personal history of “mental illness”, religious on and off in various forms, went cold Turkey off mood stabilizers and antidepressants last month, and now throw aliens into the mix…. Might as well put me in a padded room. Also, as of this week, I’m going cold Turkey on cigarettes and cannabis edibles. I’m assigning myself the task of getting my life back on track ASAP. Or perhaps, it never will. I want to know the truth No matter how much suffering will come from it. I might just get lucky and die from it all. I don’t want to catch the bus, but I want a change. An experience that will grant me what I need. I hope I’m not the only one who has or is experiencing this. And perhaps, there is more out there than just dead ends and mindless filler on Wikipedia and government sponsored websites that pop up when I search for something on Google. Can someone help me?
I’m not meant for this life I want to go home.
Submitted December 10, 2022 at 05:25AM by QUEERstioner https://ift.tt/iwU0Jk5
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