So, I'm 30, and still can't make sense of an experience I had as a child and am wondering if there are others with similar experiences? or if I should write it off as a hallucination..
I relive it a great deal, whenever I'm alone at night, rarely now that I have a family, but I get intensly afraid for a while and it's hard to sleep after. I'll try to recount all of it, it's hard to remember how it started.
I'm young, maybe five yrs old. And I wake up in my bedroom that I share with my brother, whose a yr older, to a very strange sound. It sounded like loud machinery, I thought someone had a car running outside, but it was too loud for that. There was a bunch of light coming through the window next my head. My bed's headboard was right next to or under a window, and the wall opposite had the door to the bedroom, like probably 5 feet from the foot of my bed.
The door was open and I could see shadows on the wall, and lol I thought they were dinosaur shadows, I only saw like two iirc, I mean I think part of it was the sound, which was weird and loud like a roaring of machinery, but for some reason I thought I saw dinosaur-like shadows but when I try to remember exactly what they looked like I cant unfortunately.. I think it was because I started to become really terrified, like paralyzed with fear, terrified. So scared its hard to relive yk.
Cus like I knew like this shouldn't be happening, and I started to hear voices of people talking from outside, and I realized oh my God people are breaking in to my house, like I was so terrified, and it started to build to a paralysis like I felt like I was gonna get caught just sitting there and for a moment I gave in and went like numb, but I mean, and this might be a little sad.. but my dad had REALLY bad anger problems, which also ig could play towards the hallucination cus I was definitely traumatized from it yk.. but, like, our dog crapped on the floor when we got home once and he picked her up by the throat yelling in her face and threw her into the wall.... so yeah.. but if it WASNT a hallucination.. I think maybe because I had a lot of experience with fear.. maybe that's why I was able to break out of the numbness and move.
So I did get out of bed and hid under this desk we had in our room, which was like a desk at school with the notch for pencils at the top yk, and I sat and waited, and God I wish I could remember exactly what they said but I was sooo terrified, I should probably try hypnosis ig, now that I'm actually typing this all out lol I realize that could help alot with the fear. But, I do remember the way their tones were it sounded like casual work talk. They literally were standing like 2 or 3 feet away, they had walked like right next to where I was, which was next to my brother's bed, and they were leaned over him doing something, idk what.
But the panic started to build as I realized I had my bed empty and they might realize someone should be in it. And then like as soon as I started panicking about that one of the guys mentioned "hey, weren't there supposed to be two kids?" And then I froze and honestly my memory almost cuts out there cus it's so hard to relive clearly, but I've tried a lot and the other guy said something to the effect of eh whatever, or maybe he's somewhere else icr. But I felt like I was about to die lol yk from fear and when he said that I swear my heart started beating.
But I can't remember the waiting too much, for them to leave, it wasnt as bad knowing they wouldnt pursue me yk. but they left soon after. And I was just like freaking out thinking I need to tell mom! So I got out from under the desk and started to run to the bedroom door and didn't get more than 2 or 3 steps and a fucking like mirror, what I'd see now though as a hologram like tv screen, but I thought 8t was a mirror cus it was ovoid in shape, like my gmas bathroom mirror. But yeah an ovoid screen appeared in front of me with some old man with grey hair and a mean, weathered face was looking at me, and he was like really mad and had a raised voice, almost yelling, and was like "WE'LL BE BACK FOR YOU, YOU DIDNT GET AWAY." or something very close to that..
Aaand yeah I freaked the hell out and ran screaming to my moms room and she ofc convinced me it was a dream, and then I believed it and could sleep, but then I woke up in the morning and the FIRST thing I realized was that if that was a dream how did I get to my mom's room. Like I woke up and immediately relived it, and thought oh but it was a dream, and then realized wait if it was a dream how did actually run into my mom's room and sleep here...
So hallucination ig is possible, but wasn't a dream, cus there was no like waking up transition yk and would've had to been a waking hallucination, and the only one I've ever experienced too.. to be fair my dad prolly has mental illness in his family, but on the other hand, I realized as I was older, well if it wasn't a hallucination, that was very smart to scare the crap put of me before I told my mom, so that I was hysterical and it sounded like a nightmare I had just woken from and not like I was cleverly hiding and I actually had a bit of confidence because of that lol. Felt like I outsmarted them.
But please if anyone has a similar experience, I mean the people looked human yk but the dinosaur thing has me feeling funny lol lizzid ppl yk. So it seems like it could fit in this sub. But even any similar proven hallucinations would comfort me heavily at this point. It just seemed very real, like after I saw that old dude so mad at me and say that he was gonna get me basically, I was like sobbing, trying to figure out why he was so mad at me and remember what I did for it to make sense for him to be that mad yk. I guess that relates to being the subject of my dad's anger though wow haha, deep realization? yeah, idk.
Submitted January 27, 2023 at 06:42AM by Dapper-Fortune-1220 https://ift.tt/tpU8vzH
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